For all you have done

The pressure makes us stronger. The struggle makes us hunger. The hard lessons make the difference.I want to start today by thanking God for everything He is doing for Bryon and I. We had a huge blessing catch us completely off guard and blow us out of the water! It is a private thing which I do not want to make public. But just trust me! It was amazing. God is so good..even when we don't know it or see it! I am sitting here in the coffee shop again. Bryon is at work next door and the kids are at school. This is a great time for me to write. I have to leave home to ever have the motivation to do this. At home there are farrrr too many distractions! Everything else is more important than me taking some time to do some therapeutic writing! They roast their own beans here and it smells so good..not to mention the pastry smell floating around. I have some great music in my ears here in the corner at "my table"! I have to be to work at 5am tomorrow and not looking forward to that. I never do no matter how much convincing I try to give myself! I committed to working every other Saturday now so that I would not have to do that nasty 12 hour shift anymore..yuck! I do not know who could handle being at the hospital that long! Unless you are a patient! I am going to totally change subjects here..because I can. I have found my life song. Every time I hear it I cry because no matter how many times I listen to it, it never gets old and makes me feel closer than it did the time before. It speaks straight to my heart. Give me Jesus. It is that simple. I feel like a Jesus freak. I hope this never ever goes away. I hope that is the number one thing people remember about me. Whether I'm here or gone. That everyone knows how much I love Jesus. It is not about being a super christian and following the "law" but truly loving God and following him..not people. I praise Christ for what he willingly did for a worm like me. Thank you Jesus. I cannot wait to be with you someday! I look forward to the very moment when we will be together for eternity. Who are you modeling your life after? Listen to this song and just close your eyes.

Being Sneaky!

I am not sure if anyone still checks this blog or if they just gave up! Either way I am ready to do some writing again. Since my last post I have found out that I am pregnant! Three months now! Baby is due in April! Bryon has started school for theology and ministry and is doing great! The kids are back in school and doing wonderful. God is SO incredible. Life has been a crazy but amazing ride for us! I could never wish for anything else than what I have been given. I can say a year ago I would have not seen myself or my family where we are at! That is for sure. I am back at the hospital which is great! Whenever I leave there and go back i realize how much I love my job, patients, and people in the other departments that I am blessed to know! I worked at the rescue mission running a day camp for at risk kids here in town. When God pushes you to go out on a risk and do something..you can dig your feet into the mud all you want, but sooner or later you are going to have to surrender to what you know is your purpose and that is exactly what happened! I have always said that I really love my own kids but not other peoples kids. I never felt that was my gift! I still honestly dont, but I learned so much about them and myself! I fell in love with some of them and wish I could give them a life better than what the have been dealt.( i need to go freshen my cup of coffee..be right back) Ok im back...i really wish I had some headphones! Anyway..that was the experience for me. One I will never forget. I wish i could fully express all of my thoughts on God right now. It is so hard to pin down all of your thoughts. He must really trust me because He has been opening doors non stop for me to tackle. More than i think i can handle of course, but that's the way He is. I am going to stop now. If i write too much now I wont have anything to say tomorrow!