Emotional Overload

           Good day! Well the better days are sure to come now that bryon is home hopefully! This last week has been rough. I look back at our Army times and wonder how exactly I survived! Whew. One less kid maybe! No puppies? Not sure. Either way I am spent and really need a vacation!! Without puppies...or kids!! Sorry to my children..I do love you! I am certain I have never in my life cleaned up or stepped in so much pee in my life. A good follow up to the potty training is appropriate about now. Adisynn is.....different. She is a convenient potty trainer. When it is alluring, appealing, fun or convenient for her then it's ok. Every other time all bets are off. Period. I run into some crazy trials being her mother that I have not had to deal with yet in my life raising kids. I should have known after the other two that with her things were going to be different. 2 out of 3...great. 3 for 3= too perfect! God's sense of humor. Now onto Ruth. Puppies are cute for sure but man are they work! Her and adisynn were pee all over the floor buddies last week. Back to back. I'm not going to lie I cried...a lot. Had my mini mommy meltdown. But then I went Fabric shopping and had Chinese food. A great cure all I say! Bryon got home from his man/fishing trip to Canada last night. He has an awesome tan line on his forehead. It looks like a REALLY back makeup line! Pahahaha! But no sympathy from me! No sir! Reason number 2 that I need a vacation. Bryon really gets to do some mad cool things and I struggle with some jealousy and resentment. The common "you owe me" bug. So he will pay up for the next week or so until I am satisfied!!
              Weight loss challenge is not going so well. I just flat out love food. Not overeating or indulging in ways I shouldn't or anything. Just moderating the not so good for you delicious foods! My weight has just stayed the same. A bonus I guess. Time to kick it in gear! Biggest Loser workouts and salads here I come! Dangit!! I will be winner winner chicken dinner! Hopefully my foot heals up nice in the next few weeks. I am being good at giving it time to rest. I did too much too fast on horrible running surface and got perennial tendinitis in my right foot. Dumb. But I went for a 4 mile walk this morning to burn some sweet calories :D
              I had the pleasure of talking to my nephew Tyler for the first time in at least 5 years the other day. He answered in his "man" voice. I didn't even recognize it! We talked for at least a hour about all sorts of awesomeness. I was amazed at how much we had in common and he made me laugh so much. What a joy in my heart! I feel like I know him a little bit now! Esther if you are reading this you sure are blessed to have him! He is a cool cat!
              On the last note of my update. Farmers Market starts this Saturday! Woop woop! I am really looking forward to this experience. Coffee..scones...friends! Ohhhh yeah! I am having a really hard time pricing my items. It is difficult to price your time. I am hopeful of some clarity on that matter soon..I am running out of time! Eeeeek! Feel free to come say hello! I will be set up with Rose as she sells her butterflies and berries jelly! Love you all and hope you are well! Till next time!

Commitment Issues

Having a really hard time committing to this blog. But then I always find my way back. It is really refreshing in fact! I like having a place to randomly pen down my thoughts! I did change the name of my blog because right now I find it a perfect fit for where I am at in my life and in my head. I just want some simplicity! The more I simplify things the happier I seem to get! Not saying I don't care, I just don't care as MUCH about the small things! So hello again world! Here I am :) Lots of stuff going on at the moment. Really struggling with some potty training. I can't lie...I am pretty frustrated. She loves going potty. That is not the issue. She refuses to poop on the toilet and pees about a billion times a day. I am sure that I have spent more time with her in the bathroom than I have myself my whole life....(SIGH)...With that being said I will just let it rest for a spell until there is more willingness from her. Or the likelihood of going crazy is sure to come. Not to mention the repeating that comes from my mouth....over and over and over and over. I say "Why don't you listen!!!!" Grrrrr. Maybe I am out of touch with toddlerhood. But I do not remember it being this difficult or frustrating with my other two kids. I will chalk it up to me being older and the mere difference in kids. Nuff said there.

I have started a weight-loss challenge with Bryon. We have until July 20 which is our 11 year wedding anniversary to be the biggest loser. Not sure what the prize will be yet...probably some sweet cash! Who does not love them some cash! I rallied up this idea for myself mostly. Bryon brings our a sick competitive nature in me that I can't explain. So I drew him in to light that fire under my rear for this last 15-20 lbs. I would love to shed. Just cannot seem to do it on my own authority! Bummer. Either way it will be good for both of us. In the long run we both get to have fun and get healthier! A win win to me!

In other news I have been crocheting like a mad woman. Tackling the Farmers Market this year...how exciting. Not quite sure what to expect as far as my stuff selling but I am sure to have fun while I attempt being all businessy and stuff! I am going to call my little endeavour "CRAFTYLICIOUS". So for all of my friends..or family for that matter that would love to come and see me this summer I would love that! I have created some new stuff that I am really amped up about! Also having a fantastico and super friend to help and create these things is not half bad at all. I am very certain that I would not be managing to keep my head on straight without her. She has made this whole pre-experience amazing. You know who you are! So thank you holla for loving and helping me. You really are a friend to cherish! I really look forward to this summer with you!

If you are reading this...thanks! Whoever you are for holding an interest in what I have to say. Hopefully I can tend to this little speck of my life a little bit better. When I do update on here I will be sure to put it on Facebook! Hope you have a glorious day!